First off I just want to say how excited I am for college in the fall. I can't wait to be done with high school. :) Cal State East Bay here I come! :)
Anyways check out my latest poem. It's pretty good.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Umm Hello? Can you see me standing here?
I kind of just realized that this weekend can go one of three ways:
Choice 1: It's amazing, we stay friends/get even closer; life is good
Choice 2: It goes pretty well; but there are still some pieces to pick up when its all said and done
Choice 3: It just sucks. and that's all there is to it.
I hope that it's choice one...but i guess things are what you make them, so to the best of my ability, i choose choice one and hopefully make it happen
Choice 1: It's amazing, we stay friends/get even closer; life is good
Choice 2: It goes pretty well; but there are still some pieces to pick up when its all said and done
Choice 3: It just sucks. and that's all there is to it.
I hope that it's choice one...but i guess things are what you make them, so to the best of my ability, i choose choice one and hopefully make it happen
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Interesting
It's funny...life that is.
A little over a year ago I would have just come home from Summer Camp Session 5 2008 and told you it was the best camp experience of my life, etc. I also would have told you that there were certain staff members I could not stand.
About a year ago I would have been starting my Jr. year and also being in my "Rebel without a cause phase". Which backfired on me, but hey I learned something. I also would have had my first serious crush...
About 6 months ago I learned that I had pretty much landed my dream job
About 4 months ago I was finishing my Jr. year...happy and loving life. Things were good and I had accomplished so much. I was sure life couldn't get any better.
About 3 months ago Jr. Year ended and I went off to South Lake Tahoe to work my "dream job" which ended up being more like my living nightmare. Bad experience aside I learned something. I also found out my dad had lost his job. He then proceeded to stop talking to me.
About 2 months ago I was still pondering what had gone wrong in Tahoe but worked through my issue and went on a college road trip to look at schools. I knew at this point senior year would not be a walk in the park but that this is what I wanted.
About a month ago I returned home from camp, started school , turned 17 and found out my dad might be moving to Washington. When I got home from Summer Camp Session 5 2009 I really was/am a different person. Being in the oldest cabin and in WOLP changed me in the best ways possible. The same staff members that I had once had gotten on my nerves had became one of the people I was saddest to say goodbye to. I have so many awesome memories. I also met someone that has become a best friend to me. School started with a bang. I tried my hardest to show how much I cared about someone and yet the gesture although received quite well was not returned. I turned 17 without so much as a simple card from my father. Instead I receive a grumpy phone call. It is also around this time that I find out he may be moving to Washington.
Last week a friendship blossomed. Fate I swear. I had met her at camp and we started talking. Come to find out we have so much in common. We have much to offer each other. Fate is surely what I would call it. I also completed, successfully, the first part of the physical project for my Senior Project. This was also when I found out my father would not be moving.
This week...I am taking things one day at a time. I am supposed to see my father after not seeing him for 3 months. I enjoy my nightly chats with my new best friend. I love her and everything we talk and laugh about. It's nice to not be judged and to have such an amazing friend.
Next week is the future...but I know that it will be great. I have not seen my best friend in 6weeks and I will get to see her. That alone will make the entire week special.
So needless to say 4 months ago when life couldn't get any better I was wrong. Last year when I was so sure of everything things changed for the better. And right now in this moment I can truly say that I am happier than I have been in a really long time.
Here's to new friends and amazing memories to come! <3
A little over a year ago I would have just come home from Summer Camp Session 5 2008 and told you it was the best camp experience of my life, etc. I also would have told you that there were certain staff members I could not stand.
About a year ago I would have been starting my Jr. year and also being in my "Rebel without a cause phase". Which backfired on me, but hey I learned something. I also would have had my first serious crush...
About 6 months ago I learned that I had pretty much landed my dream job
About 4 months ago I was finishing my Jr. year...happy and loving life. Things were good and I had accomplished so much. I was sure life couldn't get any better.
About 3 months ago Jr. Year ended and I went off to South Lake Tahoe to work my "dream job" which ended up being more like my living nightmare. Bad experience aside I learned something. I also found out my dad had lost his job. He then proceeded to stop talking to me.
About 2 months ago I was still pondering what had gone wrong in Tahoe but worked through my issue and went on a college road trip to look at schools. I knew at this point senior year would not be a walk in the park but that this is what I wanted.
About a month ago I returned home from camp, started school , turned 17 and found out my dad might be moving to Washington. When I got home from Summer Camp Session 5 2009 I really was/am a different person. Being in the oldest cabin and in WOLP changed me in the best ways possible. The same staff members that I had once had gotten on my nerves had became one of the people I was saddest to say goodbye to. I have so many awesome memories. I also met someone that has become a best friend to me. School started with a bang. I tried my hardest to show how much I cared about someone and yet the gesture although received quite well was not returned. I turned 17 without so much as a simple card from my father. Instead I receive a grumpy phone call. It is also around this time that I find out he may be moving to Washington.
Last week a friendship blossomed. Fate I swear. I had met her at camp and we started talking. Come to find out we have so much in common. We have much to offer each other. Fate is surely what I would call it. I also completed, successfully, the first part of the physical project for my Senior Project. This was also when I found out my father would not be moving.
This week...I am taking things one day at a time. I am supposed to see my father after not seeing him for 3 months. I enjoy my nightly chats with my new best friend. I love her and everything we talk and laugh about. It's nice to not be judged and to have such an amazing friend.
Next week is the future...but I know that it will be great. I have not seen my best friend in 6weeks and I will get to see her. That alone will make the entire week special.
So needless to say 4 months ago when life couldn't get any better I was wrong. Last year when I was so sure of everything things changed for the better. And right now in this moment I can truly say that I am happier than I have been in a really long time.
Here's to new friends and amazing memories to come! <3
Monday, September 14, 2009
Senior Year
Week 4 of school. I'm coming off the high of an amazing weekend. Like seriously it was a great weekend that involved a lot of super amazing conversation with an equally amazing person.
Problem is I think I've set my sights to high. That I'm dreaming impossible and putting my energy into maybe. It scares me but in the best way possible.
Problem is I think I've set my sights to high. That I'm dreaming impossible and putting my energy into maybe. It scares me but in the best way possible.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Insipration
Inspiration.
Something that everyone needs.
But my question is can you be inspired by someone you don't know well?
And no I'm not talking about a celebrity...I'm talking about an actual person. Someone who I met this summer...she changed my life and she doesn't even it. I don't think I'll ever be able to tell her either but this is going to be my thanks to her.
Who knew simple words and a hug could mean so much. Before I even really got to know her my heart and brain told me- "This girl is someone special. She's a good role model and is someone you can look to and trust." And my head and heart were right. The time I spent with her was limited but I can't deny what I know. (I'm hoping I don't sound like a creeper writing this) it's just that...i don't even know. Words can't explain it. It's just something that happens sometimes. Sometimes it's about the connections made and not the whole experience, at least that's what I'm slowly learning.
My eyes are wide open now, she helped me see clearly. She'll never know how much it meant but someday if our paths cross again I will throw my arms around her and say "Hey thanks. Thanks for being you!!" Eyes open, path set, determination, gentle reminders will bring me through and I know I can achieve.
<3
"THANKS!! THANKS FOR BEING YOU!!"
Something that everyone needs.
But my question is can you be inspired by someone you don't know well?
And no I'm not talking about a celebrity...I'm talking about an actual person. Someone who I met this summer...she changed my life and she doesn't even it. I don't think I'll ever be able to tell her either but this is going to be my thanks to her.
Who knew simple words and a hug could mean so much. Before I even really got to know her my heart and brain told me- "This girl is someone special. She's a good role model and is someone you can look to and trust." And my head and heart were right. The time I spent with her was limited but I can't deny what I know. (I'm hoping I don't sound like a creeper writing this) it's just that...i don't even know. Words can't explain it. It's just something that happens sometimes. Sometimes it's about the connections made and not the whole experience, at least that's what I'm slowly learning.
My eyes are wide open now, she helped me see clearly. She'll never know how much it meant but someday if our paths cross again I will throw my arms around her and say "Hey thanks. Thanks for being you!!" Eyes open, path set, determination, gentle reminders will bring me through and I know I can achieve.
<3
"THANKS!! THANKS FOR BEING YOU!!"
Friday, August 7, 2009
College
So my mom and I went and looked at a bunch of colleges up in Northern California. And I just gotta say I freaking love Nor Cal. Anyways so we looked at:
My senior year is going to kick my ass but it's totally gonna be worth it. Sac State or East Bay. Those are my dream schools and I'm going to make my dream happen!!! :)
- San Jose State
- Cal State East Bay
- San Francisco State
- Sacramento State
- Chico State
My senior year is going to kick my ass but it's totally gonna be worth it. Sac State or East Bay. Those are my dream schools and I'm going to make my dream happen!!! :)
Monday, July 27, 2009
:)
Excited for life! Smiling and positive! Dancing, smiling, laughing and loving! I am in a great mood! :)
"Never give up on the people you love!"
"Never give up on the people you love!"
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