Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Interesting
It's funny...life that is.

A little over a year ago I would have just come home from Summer Camp Session 5 2008 and told you it was the best camp experience of my life, etc. I also would have told you that there were certain staff members I could not stand.

About a year ago I would have been starting my Jr. year and also being in my "Rebel without a cause phase". Which backfired on me, but hey I learned something. I also would have had my first serious crush...

About 6 months ago I learned that I had pretty much landed my dream job

About 4 months ago I was finishing my Jr. year...happy and loving life. Things were good and I had accomplished so much. I was sure life couldn't get any better.

About 3 months ago Jr. Year ended and I went off to South Lake Tahoe to work my "dream job" which ended up being more like my living nightmare. Bad experience aside I learned something. I also found out my dad had lost his job. He then proceeded to stop talking to me.

About 2 months ago I was still pondering what had gone wrong in Tahoe but worked through my issue and went on a college road trip to look at schools. I knew at this point senior year would not be a walk in the park but that this is what I wanted.

About a month ago I returned home from camp, started school , turned 17 and found out my dad might be moving to Washington. When I got home from Summer Camp Session 5 2009 I really was/am a different person. Being in the oldest cabin and in WOLP changed me in the best ways possible. The same staff members that I had once had gotten on my nerves had became one of the people I was saddest to say goodbye to. I have so many awesome memories. I also met someone that has become a best friend to me. School started with a bang. I tried my hardest to show how much I cared about someone and yet the gesture although received quite well was not returned. I turned 17 without so much as a simple card from my father. Instead I receive a grumpy phone call. It is also around this time that I find out he may be moving to Washington.

Last week a friendship blossomed. Fate I swear. I had met her at camp and we started talking. Come to find out we have so much in common. We have much to offer each other. Fate is surely what I would call it. I also completed, successfully, the first part of the physical project for my Senior Project. This was also when I found out my father would not be moving.

This week...I am taking things one day at a time. I am supposed to see my father after not seeing him for 3 months. I enjoy my nightly chats with my new best friend. I love her and everything we talk and laugh about. It's nice to not be judged and to have such an amazing friend.

Next week is the future...but I know that it will be great. I have not seen my best friend in 6weeks and I will get to see her. That alone will make the entire week special.

So needless to say 4 months ago when life couldn't get any better I was wrong. Last year when I was so sure of everything things changed for the better. And right now in this moment I can truly say that I am happier than I have been in a really long time.

Here's to new friends and amazing memories to come! <3



As you can see from the date on this post I wrote this a nearly a year ago and now, because my life has changed so much since I feel the need to rewrite this in a similar fashion. And, will mostly likely write at least one more blog like this before I go off to college. So here's a taste of my life now...

A little over a year ago I would have told you how excited I was to be done with my junior year of high school and all the drama involved. I would have told you that I landed my dream job a camp in Tahoe and then a week later told you it was the worst job I could imagine. Then I would have told you that I was prepared to work my ass off senior year to be able to go to college.

About a year ago I would have been excited because I had gotten all the classes I wanted and needed with all the teachers I liked and was happy about senior year. I also would have been coming home from summer camp a changed person. Meeting some amazing people and getting to know others that had been there all along. There were irreplaceable and indescribable experiences that took place during the week that words will never fully be able to explain. My life was going great (for the most part).

About 6 months ago I would have been about mid-way through my senior year and glad, because things weren't always easy. I had received and accepted the offer to go to CSUEB. I also would have been excited and gearing up for my final winter camp session.

About 4 months ago I had returned from an amazing last winter camp session. I got in a huge fight with my dad that resulted in our now non-existent relationship. I also go into a huge fight with my best friend, which we would resolve but in the end it didn't matter our friendship did not last and was not meant to be.

About 2 months ago my senior year was beginning to wind down. We had Spring Show and then our senior days followed. It was exciting but I was glad to be nearly done.

About a month ago I said "HELLO HOME STRETCH!!" These were my final days of high school. Spent taking finals, hanging with friends, snapping pictures, signing year books, exchanging gifts and realizing that we had made differences in peoples lives. We then crossed the stage June 10th and I felt as though something shifted. Not that things are totally different now but "the rest of your life" and "going to college" were no longer the random lunch conversation topics they were now very real. I got to spend my graduation with some very important and special people in my life and for that I am grateful. If fact I am grateful for my life, for living to see my graduation day.

Last week I sat in my house, just having major dental work done and wondered. I wondered what life would be like when I was in college and if the people I call "friends" and I would stay in contact. I wondered what my final summer camp experience would be like and who would be there to share it with me.

This week...I got some of my "wonderings" answered. I am preparing for orientation on July 16th, which I am excited for. I had a friend that I had not spoken to since graduation text me and say they missed me and wanted to hang out. But best of all, someone who I thought I was growing apart from began texting me again and just the thought of us reconnecting makes me smile. Not only for the now but for the future. I continue to dream about summer camp but with a little more insight thanks to a friend :)

Next week is the future...but I know that it will be great. I have my college orientation and get to meet new people. I will get to see close family friends and it will be that much closer to when I go to summer camp.

So needless to say things are good. I am good and I need to just live in this moment. The time I have left in So-Cal is little so it's time to start living it up. I can't wait for the future holds, but I can't complain because the present is pretty damn great!

In the words of a friend:

"There is only one person who could ever make you happy, and that person is YOU."

So true! <3