I am starting to realize something about my experience up at Camp Concord. Although it was not perfect I learned from it. I met some amazing people and actually I learned A LOT from the experience and that to me is more important than it working out. I've also realized that it gave me an experience and a reality check that I really needed. I needed to realize that I can do things on my own, that there are people you can and can't rely, that I can do anything I set my mind to,that there are people that love and support me, and that I truly do love the idea of being a camp director. Things didn't end the way I wished they would of. Heck I don't think anyone would want to give up a job that they love but in the end it's been for the better. I got home and wished I hadn't made such a hasty desicsion, I wanted to go back and that idea was veto by my mom. At first I was mad but now I realize it was a good thing. My mom told me to channel that energy of the frustration I felt while I was there and not being able to be in control of the situation,the angry I felt at myself for coming home and not trying to work it out, the "What am I going to do with my summer now?" blah feeling and the disappointment I felt in myself and I knew I would hear from my dad and stepmother who never even believed I could get the job in the first place and do something with it.
I sat down and looked at my future. My dreams, my goals and my plans. The things I want for me. I decided that I would take French 2 (Even though the teacher isn't my favorite) and take the ACT so I could do something for me. So I can and will be applying to 4 year colleges right along with my friends. I know I can do it. I have a confidence in myself that I believe I gained when I was on my own. So now I'm ready, I'm in control and everyone better watch out because I have a drive unlike any other!
Look out world! I'm a girl on a mission to get amazing grades and get into my dream school! And there's nothing that can stop me!
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