Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Seriously

Again straight from Facebook but with added details.

  • My parents got divorced when I was nine
  • I had cancer when I was two and a half. My dad pretends like it never happened. (examples include: changing the subject when it's brought up and up until this past year hadn't been to a actual appoint with me since I was diagnosed.)
  • Got remarried to a woman who is (45-27=18) sorry had to do math, she's 18 years yonuger than him. In Hawaii, did I go no, they eloped.
  • Then they had a kid. Ummm and my dad wonders why I'm not stoked, well let's see there is an 16 year age difference between us.
  • He sides with my step mom on everything. Even at my expense. When they get going I feel like crap around them. (like either of them is so great!)
  • There's no follow through. He's "dad" when he feels like it.
Okay I mean I love my dad because he's my dad but beyond that not so much. He's made some really stupid mistakes and I don't think he ever thinks beyond the moment. I can't depend on him for anything, so I don't know why every time he screws up I expect it to be different.
Maybe part of the issue is he still sees me as being nine years old. NINE!! I"M ALMOST 17!!! HELL I"M GOING TO BE AN ADULT HERE IN THE NEAR FUTURE AND HERE HE IS STILL SEEING ME AS BEING NINE YEARS OLD!! I mean seriously what the hell? I keep growing up and he still stays the same good old, not good decision making, totally predictable dad.
Well here's the news flash dad: I'm not nine anymore! I'm 16 (almost seventeen) and I understand the real world to some degree. Okay so stop treating me like a little kid. I get that you lost your job. I understand that we are in a economic downfall. I know it's not easy to find a job. So yea I get that it's "going to be a tough few months", got it, I not as dumb as you think.
So if we need to "talk about some things", like my cell phone, then just come right out and say it! I'm so tired or this run around game he plays. Not to mention the fact he acts like the dad I used to know when my step mom isn't around but when she is he sides with her. The wicked witch of the west. It really doesn't matter what she says he agrees with her if when it hurts me.
I'm done. When I graduate, if I'm standing on that stage giving a speech I'm going to thank my mom and friends because my dad he doesn't know me at all.
Add him to my list of reasons to go to college: I can do it all on my own. I am strong and capable, I do not need to be taken care of by someone who doesn't know me.

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